I Will NOT Get Attached...I Will NOT Get Attached...I Will NOT Get Attached...
I Will NOT Get Attached...I Will NOT Get Attached...
I Will NOT Get Attached...
I Will NOT Get Attached...
I Will NOT Get Attached...
I Will NOT Get Attached...
I Will NOT Get Attached...
I Will NOT Get Attached...
IT'S NOT WORKING!!!!!!
Why must all the actually good guys that I get along with, that I work well with, that actually make me happy have such things like Guy does? IT'S JUST NOT FAIR!!!!!!! Why can't he just be completely unattached? Why must his Ex live with him? Ok, yeah I know this is more then likely an affair like relationship but damn it! WHY WHY WHY?!?!
What leads me to this post you ask? Well last night he actually crashed at my place. Yup stayed the whole night. You know since I left the Ex, I've only had one guy stay over and it was a disaster. Who wakes up another person just because you are awake when you know they have to work in the morning? Guy? He was perfect. We've spent the night together before, but it was very early in the relationship and was in a tent for 4 days. Last night was a "real" experience. Even though I felt him get out of bed a few times, He always tried to be quiet, careful, even made sure I was covered each time when he got up. It was the sweetest thing. All night he had a hand on me in some way, even if I laid on the other side of the bed, he would cuddle up close enough to touch me. I could feel him all night long, it was wonderful. I am a very clingy girl, I'll admit to that. I want nothing more then to be held all the time, cuddled with, touched, I don't care if I'm just standing in a store, I LOVE to have an arm wrapped around me randomly and a kiss on the cheek. It goes a LONG way to making me happy. I'm also independent, so finding that threshold is hard, but Guy has it nailed.
I'm really going to be completely heart broken when/if things fall apart. Sex is amazing, he is amazing, and he makes me happy and I can tell I make him happy (otherwise he wouldn't come over randomly just to hang out, no sex expected). This just stinks. -sighs-
