You know as a teenager the only thing you wish is to grow up. To stop being that stupid kid and go out on your own. I was never like that. I knew that those times were the best time of my life. Honestly? No they were, but they sure were a lot easier times. I LOVE being an adult, even with the stresses of paying bills and working, I enjoy it. I wouldn't go back to my teen years ever... ok maybe just long enough to tell myself to PUSH through school, and do something in my life.
Today was a boring day. Ok well, not completely boring but boring all the same. The Guy came over for a visit today. I was quite shocked, since yesterday I told him "I have tomorrow off if you get bored" and gave him a kiss goodbye as we left a meeting. I didn't actually expect him to show up. It was a nice day just cuddlings and chit-chatting. I hear the same stories over and over again but I enjoy them all the same. At one point though, we ended up having sex. I caught a glance of us in my full length mirror and for once what was happening just kind of hit me. I guess it's something that my mind hasn't been able to wrap around. There I was with him, with just pure happiness and excitement on my face. I don't think I've ever seen myself with that look on my face. It was odd. Now I can't get that image out of my head (not that I really want to). Why does my mind play these games on me? I know that in the end this won't work out. He's too much of a player for me to ever really trust him. He'll sleep with other women without a second thought. That's who he is. I guess I'll enjoy what I have now though.
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On another note, I decided to try out online dating. It's not like I'm confident enough to go meet a guy out at a bar. It's been it's own adventure thats for sure. Tips for online dating for men:
1. Don't post photos of you flicking off the camera. Really it's lame, childish, and tasteless
2. Messages that say "Hey" really are about as pointless as they come. I'd rather someone message me and say "You have gum on your shoe" which at least I could have fun with over "hey" which will just make me pass over you.
3. Don't post photos of you and your Ex. That's just self explanatory
4. Speaking of your children at the beginning is GREAT! Many women don't mind that you have kids. Telling me you have kids 3 weeks later on a date when you let it slip is BAD.
5. Watch what you use for your username. When I see something that says Slasher69, I'm not impressed. Neither is something like "Allnightlover", "hard4u", or anything that says "69" or "420". Your username is the first thing we see and is your first impression.
